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Curi – YAAS Conversation with Nicole L.

In episode 135 and 136, Nicole L. comes on the podcast to tell her story. Here’s our Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I’m 33-years-old and from Ireland.

What brings you to the podcast?

I love the podcast and really wanted to reach out and find out more about our community and offer my experience as it may help someone listening.

How do you feel about the term crossdresser? Do you agree with the word? Is it an outdated term? Are you yourself a crossdresser? If so, how’d you come to that conclusion?

I prefer the term crossdresser to more derogatory terms like tranny or shemale. I think it’s a self explanatory term. I am a crossdresser because I love being femme dressed up 😊

With regards to your gender identity, you seem to not care about labels really, when you were speaking with Giselle in your Curi – YAAS conversation with her. So how would you classify your gender identity? Do you think we should just get rid of labels entirely?

Labels to me are confusing at times lol. It seems like there’s a new one every year. So to someone that doesn’t know anything about our community it must be even more confusing. But on the other hand labels are important to some people to help them feel like they belong.

Personally I think society has created too many ways to be a person, by that I mean I think we should be able to just be ourselves without judgment or labels, just be the person you want to be. As long as its not harming anyone else what does it matter what you call it 😊

With regards to your sexuality, you seem to be into women as you do have a fiancee (congratulations by the way!). How did you come to terms with that? The idea that you’re into women. Have you experimented at all with same sex relationships?

Thank you 😊 I’ve always respected women and have had girlfriends from middle school onward. I’ve never looked at guys that way. I do find other trans women attractive as I’m attracted to the female form 😊

You spoke about many things with Giselle, and one thing that made an impression was that you do have a 9-year-old son and you expressed worries about him discovering your Nicole alter ego. Do you feel any shame with Nicole when it comes to your son? What steps could you take to help your son understand what Nicole means to you? Or do you want to try and separate Nicole in your relationship with your son?

I don’t feel shame as such, more concern as although even if he knew and was fine with it, I’d be concerned if he told his friends at school as kids can be cruel. I don’t want him to experience ridicule because of me.

I don’t think any steps would need to be taken to help him understand as he’s been brought up to respect others. Unfortunately not every parent brings their children up this way and therefore it’s best to wait until he’s a little older. I will most likely tell him sometime 😊

If Nicole is an alter ego of your male self, what differences, if any, do you notice when you’re Nicole versus you in guy mode?

I’m more relaxed in girl mode. Guy me has his baggage and Nicole doesn’t carry it for him lol

You live in Ireland and you talked a little bit about the unique qualities the Irish have when it comes to the LGBTQ community in terms of acceptance. In your opinion, does the outlook of the LGBTQ community for Ireland look more positive, negative, or the same, and why?

I think its a positive outlook. For the most part I think people want to be more open minded and accepting. The LGBTQ community is supported in Ireland. Gay marriage is legal here and during pride month there are rainbow flags flown everywhere 😊

With over 27 thousand followers on Instagram, and an increasing online presence, how do you feel about being a so-called “influencer?” Do you consider yourself that? What does that even mean to you?

I don’t consider my self an influencer to be honest. If I’m helping people or just making them smile then I’ll keep posting. But mainly I do it for a confidence boost. I’m an extremely insecure person really so, putting myself out there in the spotlight of social media is me pushing myself to be more confident. 

COVID-19 has been a struggle for all of us, but how has Nicole been affected by the pandemic?

Nicole has had it easy lol guy me had some ups and downs but for the most part it’s been OK. Others have had it worse.

What would you say Nicole’s style is? Tell us about your fashion sense and how you developed it!

Fashion has been a turbulent ride 😅 I’ve styled Nicole’s look after many iconic females such as Audrey Hepburn, Christina agulara etc. I’ve just kept colour in my look. 

What’s your favorite thing to wear? Do you have a go-to outfit?

Skater skirts! I love them 💜 also bodycon dresses because who doesn’t love them? They’re sexy! Lingerie obviously 😍

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I wish I could tell 15 year old me that your not a freak, your not alone and that it’s gonna be OK. I wish I had accepted myself sooner, been braver, stronger… Been myself 😔

We obviously know a lot about Nicole in your talk with Giselle…but tell us something you omitted about Nicole that you wish you told The CrossYAAS Podcast!

Well being a crossdresser means you get to see life from a different prospective. You see it from a woman’s perspective. It makes us more intuitive and aware of our partners needs. It’s easy to forget just how lucky we are to experience that thought process as most of us spend a long time trying to suppress it. I say embrace it!

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender/non-binary/genderfluid/other individuals?

Don’t be afraid to be yourself! Don’t be ashamed of yourself! Don’t let the haters get you down! You are different yes, but your uniqueness makes you special and the ones that appreciate that uniqueness are the ones worth your time.

Anything that costs your mental health is too expensive, so if you feel down about purging, shame or dysphoria ask yourself this question… Why am I letting the opinions of those around shape my future?

This world can be ugly and it can consume the unique beauty it holds within. But can be strong enough to weather it, you can be bold enough to be different and you can be bitchy enough to screw you to those who oppose you 😘

How will you approach Nicole moving forward? Does anything change after being on the podcast?

Nicole will stay the same sassy girl she’s become. Her makeup may change her style may alter, but her flare is permanent 😊 the podcast was a great experience. Talking to Giselle really helped me come out of my comfort zone. Also she’s the first crossdresser I’d spoken to in outside of DMs so that was great 😊

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Absolutely YAAS!! It’s an incredible resource for information for both crossdressers and their partners. Giselle is such an inspiration and a credit to the community. 😊

And finally, where can people support and follow Nicole on social media!
My Instagram and Tik Tok user name is x1xnicolex1x if you guys and girls wanna follow me 😘

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Claire Q&A!

Episode 131 and 132 feature Claire, a 31-year-old genderfluid crossdresser currently living in Portland, Oregon. Here’s our Q&A with her

How old are you and where are you from?

I’m 31 years old and I’m originally from the Midwest of the United States.

What brings you to the podcast?

I have heard many other peoples’ stories and wanted to share mine to pay it forward and in hopes that it helps someone else as other peoples’ stories have helped me.

How do you feel about the term crossdresser? Do you agree with the word? Are you yourself a crossdresser? If so, how’d you come to that conclusion?

I feel that the term crossdresser carries a negative connotation to it.

I would consider myself a crossdresser, however I also feel that the term does not fully encapsulate who I am as a person, where as genderfluid/non-binary seems to be more fitting.

I realized I am a crossdresser, but I feel like it goes beyond the clothes, wig, and makeup. 

How would you identify with your gender identity? You said Non-binary genderfluid with your chat with Giselle. But do you think you fall under the transgender umbrella? Why or why not?

I absolutely fit under the transgender umbrella as my sense of identity does not completely match up with my birth sex. Non-binary/Genderfluid helps me communicate that I don’t fully identify with either gender binaries and that I my motivation to dress up as Claire changes day to day. 

How would you classify your sexuality? How did you come to terms with that?

I would say I’m attracted to femininity, but also to a certain degree pansexual, but I have yet to explore the boundaries of that.

I would say some therapy and introspection have helped me shed the layers of shame surrounding who I am and who I am attracted to.

Also the CrossYAAS podcast helped a ton as well!

You said many things to Giselle, and one thing that stood out was your relationship with your parents. Do you regret not coming out to them sooner? Are you satisfied with how it all went down the way it did?

I personally do not regret telling them sooner. I’ve always had a feeling they wouldn’t react well, and I felt I needed a layer of social support to be able to work up the courage to come out to them without needing their approval. I am happy the way I did it because I felt like they were able to understand that I was serious and that I cared about them. 

You seem so laid back with the crossdressing and your gender identity. How did you get to be this way? You make it seem so easy! What is your secret?

I recognized from a young age that this will always be a part of me, so I kind of accepted that it was here to stay whether I liked it or not. While it has caused some issues with previous relationships, I also know that it has made me a much more empathetic person and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without it. It’s taken me a long time to realize it’s not harming anyone, that it is a form of self-expression, and that my friends, that I’ve come out to, do truly just want me to be happy regardless of how I present myself. Also I realized that most people ultimately are too busy in their lives to care about other people’s life choices, and if they do care that’s just kind of weird.

COVID-19 has been a struggle for all of us, how has your Claire self been affected with the pandemic?

I feel that COVID-19 has been a struggle for everyone. I would say Claire got a lot of time to hone her makeup skills, but similar to everyone was just ready to get back out and socialize. 

What would you say your style is? Tell us about your fashion sense!

I love clothes that make me feel cute. I love anything flowy and practical. It feels nice to wear a high waisted skirt because you can be bloated and still look good. I guess a good portion of my style is dictated by Target as well. It’s super fun to experiment, but currently my style is cute and casual. 

What’s your favorite thing to wear? Do you have a go-to outfit?

I don’t currently have any go-to outfits, but I’d say if I had to throw something on quickly that works in most situations is a nice green wrap dress that has pocket and brown chunky block heel strappy sandals.

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I don’t really have any regrets in life as it has all led me to be where I am today. However, it  would have been nicer if I got to where I am today at a younger age. 

We obviously know a lot about Claire in your talk with Giselle… tell us something you omitted about Claire that you wish you told The CrossYAAS Podcast!

I love music, food, hiking, video games, movies, makeup and oxford commas.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender/non-binary/genderfluid/other individuals?

Be your best self, experiment, think about what brings you the most joy, and don’t feel shame for what society may not accept. Also put yourself out there more, do things that make you a bit nervous, and experience what life has to offer. 

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

For this question, I would have to give a big fat YAAS. 

This podcast has helped me a ton in understanding my dressing and has helped me view my dressing in a non-shameful way. 

The CrossYAAS discord is a wonderful source of support and has absolutely enriched my life since joining.

I used to see my crossdressing as a negative side of myself that I acknowledged, now I see it as something beautiful that makes me a unique individual. 

How will you approach Claire moving forward? Does anything change after being on the podcast? 

I’ll probably approach my Claire side the same as before. I’ll keep pushing myself to put myself out there more. Hopefully my story will resonate with others and inspire them to live their lives more authentically. 

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Stephanie Fredericks Q&A!

In Episode 129, Stephanie Fredericks, a crossdresser and genderfluid individual comes onto the podcast to tell her story. Here’s our Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I am 49 years old, I was born in TX, but moved all around and now live in Arizona.

What brings you to the podcast?

I wanted to tell my story because I hope it will someday help someone that listens to this in the future feel comfortable about being who they are. And not fear telling family and friends. It can be hard but it’s not impossible.

Do you consider yourself a crossdresser? Why or why not? Do you even like the term crossdresser? How’d you come to that conclusion?

I used to call my dressing just a hobby, and then I came to terms that I was a crossdresser. And I don’t mind that term because it was exactly what I was doing. As time went on I realized that it has always been something more. There was something more inside me that loved femininity. I came to the conclusion just through time, educating myself, listening to podcasts(especially this one), and deep thought about how I really feel.

How would you identify with your gender identity? You said genderfluid with your chat with Giselle. But do you think you fall under the transgender umbrella? Why or why not?

I identify as genderfluid and I absolutely also feel that falls under the Trans umbrella. I wasn’t sure about that until last year when reading more and more about what it is that defines the Trans umbrella and things just started making sense. One good book I read that helped with my identity was “Seeing Gender” by Iris Gottlieb.

How would you classify your sexuality? How did you come to terms with that?

I always considered myself straight and happily married to a Cis woman. I’m not sure if the fact that I am on HRT changes anything because I don’t feel the need to fully transition as a woman.

Why did you decide to start HRT? You talk about HRT lite… but how did you come to the conclusion to start it? DId you seek a gender therapist beforehand? Did that help?

I didn’t seek a therapist beforehand because after researching micro-dosing and having my practitioner tell me more about it, I knew that it was right for me and probably what my body has been needing to make me feel complete. It’s hard to explain the feeling but it’s one of those feelings you can’t ignore. It was recommended that I now see a therapist while on HRT so I am getting a referral for one.

What’s your biggest fear with this transition? HRT can be a scary word for some, but are you yourself scared?

I’m not scared but some things do still make me nervous. It is going to change my body and some things may be irreversible. I wonder sometimes, if for some reason down the road I feel that it is not working physiologically like I had thought, what happens next?

The thing that stood out in your Curi – YAAS convo with Giselle you discussed your terrible relationship with your ex-wife, who shared the same name as Giselle’s girlfriend from hell, Jenn… What the hell is wrong with her? Why are some of the worst people named Jenn?!

She was greedy, selfish, and just overall not a very empathetic person. And the second question makes me think that someone should do a scientific study on why that is.

All jokes aside, you’ve come out a better, and stronger human being because of that relationship with your ex-wife Jenn. How did you do it? What advice can you offer people who are coming out of a bad relationship?

Thank you. I’d definitely say I learned a lot from that relationship and came out stronger. I was young and I probably married too “spur of the moment” in the first place. But, once I saw some warning signs that we probably weren’t compatible I should have sought help and not just hoped things would get better naturally. My advice for coming out of a bad relationship is to take a break, as long as you need, and reassess what type of person you really want to be with and if you do meet someone new, take your time and make sure they are the right one.

Your wife Gwen sounds like a wonderful human being! How do you maintain a great relationship with her? What is your favorite thing about her? Why is she so awesome!

Gwen’s amazing! And we have a great relationship because we care about each other, pay attention to each other, and are always making sure each other has what we need. We also spend lots of time together because we enjoy each other’s company, but are also able to go do our own things if needed. She’s beautiful and great in many ways but my favorite thing about her is how she can handle any social situation, even if it’s uncomfortable. I lack that skill and have learned a lot from her.

COVID-19 has been a struggle for all of us, how has your Steph self been affected with the pandemic?

There were some things that I wanted to do more as Steph in public but being at home a lot actually allowed me (Steph) to thrive, not only because I dressed more but because I had a lot of time off to educate myself and really think more about who I am inside.

What would you say your style is? Tell us about your fashion sense!

When glamming up I love Pin up, polkadots, business casual, and sundresses. During the work day I’ve been experimenting with some genderfluid clothing.

What’s your favorite thing to wear? Do you have a go-to outfit?

Favorite things to wear are sundresses. Also I dress every night in femme Pjs, a bandana, and eyeliner. It’s just my nightly comfort go-to.

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I think all of us say this but I wish I would’ve started dressing and coming out earlier in life. But it’s all situational and everyone’s life is different so I am also extremely happy with where I’m at at this point in my life. I’m very lucky.

My Grandad died at 90 and he was always a funny man and a good prankster. After the funeral my family was cleaning his house and found some pictures of him dressed in lingerie in his later years. They didn’t make fun of him but laughed and cast it off at how this was probably his last prank to the family. I’m glad they thought of it that way and not something negative but I looked at those pictures and saw a sad man that probably suppressed his entire life that he was a crossdresser or maybe even more.

We obviously know a lot about Steph in your talk with Giselle… tell us something you omitted about Steph that you wish you told The CrossYAAS Podcast!

I wished I would’ve stated how much I love helping younger crossdressers on social media. When I first went public it was for validation for me and yes, at first I was interested in numbers and comments. Then younger CDs started reaching out to me for advice and I loved it and realized that just me being public and visible and confident was really helping some others to come out of their shell and also not fear showing their true selves to the public. It makes me feel good when someone says that I gave them the confidence to be visible.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender/non-binary/other individuals?

Read everything you can and learn about who you are. Get help if it’s difficult because it can be. And don’t be afraid to ask people with experience. They most likely went through most of what you are going through.

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

I may have been one of Giselle’s most nervous guests, even though she didn’t think so, and her interview style quickly conquered my fear and I easily told my story. It was therapeutic and made me hope that someday in the future my story may relate to someone new to this and is wondering how to navigate it. No matter where you are in your experience with this it will help you to talk and probably help someone else that is listening to the episode.

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Dottie Q&A!

In Episode 128, Dottie, a crossdresser from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania comes on the podcast to tell her story. Here’s our Q & A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I’m 27 and from Philadelphia.

What brings you to the podcast?

My friend Madi invited me to the discord server so I started listening to some episodes after joining. I think it’s great to hear voices of other people in the community and their stories. You can learn a lot about yourself from empathizing with the experiences of others.

Do you consider yourself a crossdresser? Why or why not? How’d you come to that conclusion?

I don’t really like the term “crossdresser” but it’s the simplest way to convey to somebody what I basically do so I use it.

How would you identify with your gender identity? Do you think you fall under the transgender umbrella? Why or why not?

I call myself genderfluid, which falls under the “T” umbrella to me more than it does “Q” or “+”. Honestly, I think labels are stupid and overrated but we still kind of need them to define things for people who have trouble understanding it. Basically, I present masculine most of the time, but when I want to and can I present feminine. I’m still the same person at the end of the day, just some days I’m prettier than others!

How would you classify your sexuality? How did you come to terms with that?

I don’t really know how to define it exactly, I just know I’m attracted to feminine people. I don’t have an issue with any specific bits downstairs, I just know I just find femininity very sexy and attractive. It’s part of the reason why I present the way I do in the first place, I want to feel good about my appearance and look like somebody I would be attracted to. So I’m whatever that is, I like girls!

Are you public about Dottie? Who knows about Dottie and what was that coming out process like, if you did come out? If you haven’t, why haven’t you?

My social media is public for the most part, but I’m not “out” about it to most of the people in my life. My mom knows about it but she doesn’t want to be a part of it, and I don’t want her to be involved either. Doing this is something that I do for myself, it shouldn’t affect anyone else but the unfortunate reality is that it does. It would be different if I defined myself as a Drag Queen or Trans, but I am a part of this weird in-between space that’s more difficult to understand than either of those. Not to say it would be any easier as whole coming out as the aforementioned labels, but people nowadays have a better understanding of who those people are. At the end of the day, it’s not really anybody else’s business. If I had a partner, I would have to come out to them, as a relationship with me wouldn’t work if they couldn’t accept Dottie.

How important is passing to you? Would you say you have passing privilege?

My goal is to look like what I think a woman looks like in my head. That’s not to say other interpretations of femininity aren’t valid of course, this presentation is just what I personally like. So that’s the goal, to “pass”. I’m not sure if I fully attain this goal but I try really frickin hard to.

In your Curi – YAAS Conversation with Giselle, you talk about presenting Dottie in the most hyperfeminine of ways just like Giselle. Tell us more! Giselle loves being slutty, but would you say you feel the same? Or is it something else? Like, why be hyperfeminine?

I would say I try to be more flirty than slutty! I think of femininity and masculinity as very binary definitions, so when I present fem I try to put out the most feminine aura I can achieve. As to why…cause it’s fun! Also if I’m going to take a million hours to do makeup and hair I’m not just going to put on a t-shirt and jeans and call it a day, I’m cranking it up to 11.

You also wear a breastplate when you become Dottie. What made you decide to wear a breastplate? What are some pros and cons that people don’t realize when wearing one?

I think that goes along with the hyperfeminine thing, to me that means you gotta have some cleavage. I’ve wanted one for as long as I can remember, but never had the means to store or purchase one until recently (thank you stimulus!). I got one that is like a crop top, It doesn’t have any straps or anything so it limits the sort of outfits you can wear if you are trying to hide the seams and make them look as natural as possible. Most of my wardrobe either doesn’t really work well with them since it wasn’t an issue for me before, or completely covers them up which sorta negates the whole point of wearing them. They for sure help shape your upper body and take eyes away from the flaws in your figure that way and of course add more curve to your silhouette. If I had to purchase them again, I would maybe get one with neck straps and go a little bit lighter on the skin tone. Also I would go bigger!

Safe to say COVID – 19 has had a major effect on the world. How have you been affected by this pandemic Dottie? Have you felt any benefit or loss during this pandemic with regards to your gender identity?

Before the pandemic, I just began going out in public to bars and clubs en-fem. It was so much fun, but then it was taken away through no fault of my own. I realized that once you take the next step, level up so to speak, it’s really difficult to go back down. Mentally that is. Given the circumstances, I couldn’t go out anyway so I was forced to just be fem alone in my house. That sucked! A benefit was that over the last year, I focused on experimenting and trying harder with makeup. I don’t love makeup, in fact I loathe the process. However I recognize I need to do it to even make an attempt at achieving my goal, so I tried really hard at getting better with it.

Clearly your style is the best. Madi stole what you wore when you did that Instagram Live together.. So what would you say your style is? What kind of fashion sense would you say you have that makes everyone want to BE Dottie?

Thank you! Madi is just creatively bankrupt and can’t come up with any outfit on her own so she just steals my ideas. That’s exactly what I do though. The best artists steal! I really just look at what other people are wearing and either replicate a look like theirs for myself or I put my own twist on it.

What’s your favorite thing to wear? Do you have a go-to outfit? Do you dress differently in private than you do in public?

My favorite thing to wear is probably pleated skirts believe it or not. I think there is something super cute and flirty about a pleated skirt and a top that complements. I for sure dress differently at home than when I go out. At home I try more elaborate shapewear since I know I’m only going to be wearing it for a little while. In public I try to be a little less revealing and more comfortable. Going to the bathroom in public is already stressful enough in the first place, I don’t want to add padding, Spanx, and several layers of tights on to that stress.

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I wish I would have started going out sooner than I did, but I didn’t have anyone I was comfortable enough with to do so.

We obviously know a lot about Dottie in your talk with Giselle… tell us something you omitted about Dottie that you wish you told The CrossYAAS Podcast!

I think we alluded to it with the “Yu-gi-oh!” tangent but I am a huge frickin nerd. I probably like or have some sort of strong opinion on whatever nerdy thing you can think of.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender/non-binary/other individuals?

If you are struggling with how you look, you just have to keep putting in the work until you get happy with it. That happiness is going to be different for everyone, some people want to just put on a dress and some people need to be medically treated for gender dysphoria. You are the only person who knows what will make you happy, so you should work towards getting there. You only get one shot at living life, so just live it the happiest way you can.

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Of course! I had a really fun conversation and I hope to be invited back in the future. Everybody should join the discord as well!

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Bella Q&A!

Episode 123 features Bella, a crossdresser living in the Midwestern United States. Here’s our Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I am a 38 year old male and live in the midwest

What brings you to the podcast?

I am here at the CrossYAAS podcast because I would like to begin the process of being more open about my crossdressing and also would like to help normalize it in the world. The more we put ourselves out there , the more normal it becomes 

Do you consider yourself a crossdresser? Why or why not? How’d you come to that conclusion?

I have  considered myself a crossdresser all my life until recently , before all I knew was that I liked to wear female clothing, but now I feel like I show gender fluid tendencies as i don’t necessarily have to be fully dressed in female attire to be happy. Most days I’m happy with a pair of female  skinny jeans and an Under Armour shirt 

How would you identify with your gender identity? Do you think you fall under the transgender umbrella? Why or why not?

Definitely fall under the transgender umbrella , although  I don’t necessarily like to claim it since I don’t really get as persecuted as they do since I can hide it from everyone I want to hide it from (which hopefully that will change soon ) 

How would you classify your sexuality? How did you come to terms with that?

I think I am straight but bi curious. I have experimented with same sex relationships, and it was alright, I guess I just prefer females 

You’ve talked about your work as a pastor with Giselle in your Curi – YAAS Conversation with her. What made you decide to become a pastor and did you experience any personal conflict with the church and your own gender identity?

I felt it was a calling from above, and I don’t think I personally felt any conflict with the church as it is a private matter. However if it was public, yes they would be in conflict , most likely I would be asked to leave the pastoral staff 

You live in the midwest and are still searching for more outlets to be Bella. What are your current methods in achieving that goal? Are you satisfied with those measures? If not, what more do you wish you could do?

Bella comes out on trips that I make for work , and through doing a lot of buying at Victoria’s Secret and Ross. I also love visiting thrift stores too, LOL. I have a huge closet! I am satisfied for now, but wish I could do more. I have no problem going into stores and buying and trying female clothes in the dressing rooms , however, I wish I could go in there dressed as Bella and have a nice shopping spree. Maybe even one day, I hope to go to Sephora and get a makeover. 

What effect has COVID – 19 had on you being Bella? How has the pandemic affected your life and the expression of your gender identity?

COVID-19 has been hard as there has been less time to dress up since all the kids were home for remote school. So for now, the only times I have for myself is at night or right before I go to work in the mornings.

What would you say your style is? You talk about being thrifty but what does that mean? What kind of fashion sense do you have?

My style is someone elegant / business with a hint of gym girl and classic slut next door in private.

You may not be buying expensive clothes, so then, what’s your favorite thing to wear? Do you have a go-to outfit? Do you dress differently in private than you do in public?

I love cocktail dresses from Ross , and also Victoria’s Secret sportswear. Their sport bras and lingerie are amazing! I did like to dress a bit slutty at home, with really high heels  and tiny short dresses. As I mentioned before, I love wearing mostly skinny jeans out in public, even if you can definitely tell they are woman jeans. They feel absolutely wonderful. 

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I wished I would have been more out in public sooner, so that I could put this struggle behind me and my kids would have been introduced to Bella at a very young age. 

We obviously know a lot about Bella in your talk with Giselle… tell us something you omitted about Bella that you wish you told The CrossYAAS Podcast!

I don’t think I omitted anything important, however I do feel like the conversation moved towards a religious convo and just hope I don’t bored people , I guess I did omit some NSFW things, but I didn’t feel like it had to be shared right away, hehe

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender/non-binary/other individuals?

I would tell them to just be yourself no matter what. People are gonna love you or hate you regardless of what your tendencies might be so come out early to your partners and love ones. Trust me. This will allow you to be happier in your daily life.  Some will, some won’t, so what? I know I sound hypocritical as I am having a hard time doing that myself , but I’m working on it. Once I know my kids won’t be affected by this, I will definitely be more open 

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Definitely,  if you’re listening to this and want to find an outlet, what better way than sharing it to stranger, we only have 5 listeners anyways , LOL. For real though , it felt good to finally open up to someone , even if I have never met Giselle , it felt great having her listen to me and it made me feel like I am worthy, thanks Giselle! 

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Madi Q&A!

Episodes 112 and 113 featured Madi, a crossdresser from Portland who came on the podcast to share her story. Here’s our Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I’m 40. I grew up in Santa Cruz, California and moved to Portland, Oregon at the end of 2015.

What brings you to the podcast?

Through another member of the community and guest on the show, Hope. We’ve known each other for several years, and she said some *very* kind words about me in her interview episode. That got me interested in checking out the Discord group, and one thing led to another.

Are you a crossdresser?

Yes.

How do you feel about the term crossdresser?

I don’t love it. I increasingly feel that it just describes an activity and not an identity. It doesn’t communicate anything about your relationship to gender or your motivations. That and it just doesn’t have any positive associations—it’s not a word people associate with craft or personal enrichment.

How would you identify with your gender identity? Do you identify as transgender? Why or why not?

I identify as genderqueer, which does put me under the transgender umbrella. The way I see it and feel it is that my whole self can’t be contained by one gender expression. I don’t feel a lot of need to claim transgender personally, though. It’s replaced “transexual” so thoroughly that I feel like using it to describe myself would probably cause more confusion than it would resolve.

How would you classify your sexuality? How did you discover that?

It depends on who I’m talking to and how much time we have to talk about it. I’ve generally rounded off to “straight” in the past, for the sake of simplicity, but I think straightness has more wiggle room than the popular discourse usually gives it credit for. 

There was a great opinion piece on the NYT recently urging bisexuals to come out, and it made the argument that it does *not* mean equal attraction to everyone at all times. It can lean more toward one sex than another, and it can be situational, and it can vary over time. I’m not sure I’m ready to claim bisexual yet, but given that argument, I’m warming to it.

All that said, “femmesexual” is the best term I’ve found to describe my orientation. I’m attracted to femininity.

In your Curi – YAAS conversation with Giselle, you talk about wanting to come out at work? Have you done that yet? What was the work reaction like?

Yes, I came out the next week, and it was a phenomenal experience. My team was incredibly supportive, and I felt a huge weight lifted from my shoulders that I’d grown so used to that I barely realized it was there. When you’re closeted, there’s a kind of paranoia that sets in around whether you’re doing anything that will out you. Was that gesture too femme? Was that drag race reference suspicious? Is my birthday tiara visible in the background of this zoom call? (it was, and for months, and no one ever noticed). I’ve been able to let go of all of those worries, and it’s been such a liberating feeling. If it’s safe for you to come out, I encourage it.

You also discussed with Giselle, about your affinity towards Drag? What is your fascination with it? 

Fundamentally it’s the same fascination with transformation I have for any kind of gender nonconformance. But I like the hugeness of it. I love camp. I love the way it queers femininity, turning into a loud, commanding, powerful force. Drag queens are gonna save the world.

Why should I watch RuPaul’s Drag Race? Is it really that good of a show?

It can be. Honestly my enthusiasm for it has been cooling off lately, but I do think it’s a great show overall. I’ve learned a lot about confidence and authenticity from it.

You talk about avoiding the spotlight when you talked with Giselle. How important is passing to you? In what ways do you try or not try to pass?

I’d probably be lying if I said I didn’t do my best to pass, but I don’t *expect* to pass. I want to create the best illusion that I can. I pay a lot of attention things to proportions, what kinds of clothes best fit my body, how I move and walk. I don’t bother trying to change my voice though—maybe it’s from watching so much drag race, but doing a voice just seems unnecessary, for me.

What would you say your style is? How did you develop it?

I have a few. Last Fall I was getting into this quasi-1950’s retro look, but I’m not feeling that as much lately. More recently I’ve been into this sort of *Real Housewives* MILF rich bitch vibe.

I’m not sure how to answer the question of how I develop any looks though. I mostly fly on intuition, I guess. I do a lot of online window shopping and play around with outfit composition in my head while I do that.

What’s your favorite thing to wear?

Lately, sequins. I love the sparkle, it makes me feel gorgeous and confident. I have these faux leather leggings I can’t get enough of, too. Oh and heels—they’re an important part of the transformation for me, in the way they change how I move.

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

It probably goes without saying I wish I’d dressed more when I was in my 20’s and early 30’s. I try not to get too caught up in that though. 

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender individuals?

If it’s safe for you to come out, start coming out. You need the support. This part of you is fundamental to who you are, and keeping that a secret will wreck you.

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Yeah if listening to the show makes you think, “hey, that seems like it would be fun,” then definitely reach out to Giselle and come tell us your story!

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Candice C. Q&A!

In Episode 110, Candice C, a 39-year-old crossdresser comes onto the podcast to tell her story. Here’s our Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I am 39 and from Canada.  Yes it’s a big country, but I have lived all over the place, so let’s just leave it at Canada 🙂

What brings you to the podcast?

I found the podcast through my own desire for consuming resources in the search of defining my self identity.  Most of the resources out there are outdated.  I love the fresh approach that this podcast is taking!  I decided to contribute in order to share my story and add to the growing number of voices out there.  Hearing other voices is helping me, and I hope that I can help others!

For newcomers to the podcast, is the CrossYAAS podcast worth listening to? Why or why not?

The podcast is definitely worth listening to.  Giselle weaves interesting current affairs with topics of sexuality and gender.  And the interviews serve as a glimpse into the lives of other people that also cross dress or otherwise explore gender.

Are you yourself a crossdresser?

Yes!

How would you identify with your gender identity? Do you identify as transgender? Why or why not?

I don’t like to slot myself into one identity.  I find that somewhat constricting when it comes to sexuality and gender.  But I can relate to non-binary and genderfluid.  And I like to consider those under the trans umbrella.

How would you classify your sexuality?

I would classify myself as having a submissive feminine sexual identity, and attracted to dominant feminine energy.  

Are you open about your crossdressing/sexuality/gender?What was that coming out process like?

I am only out to my wife IRL.  That process, as you can or will hear in the podcast, was not ideal.  It came out with her discovering pictures on my computer.  That started off the conversation in a really negative way as it damaged a lot of trust between us.  If I had told her earlier on in our relationship, things would have worked out a lot better.  She is very open minded and accepting of LGBTQ and various sexual kinks.  

In your Curi – YAAS conversation with Giselle, you talk about not being open about your crossdressing to your workmates because they’re older and they wouldn’t understand. Where do you think your perception of them not understanding stems from? Would it change the work dynamic if they knew about Candice?

I work in a small company of about 20 people.  Many of whom I have known for about 10-15 years, and the others are quite a bit younger.  Therefore I think they would get over it and accept me because they have known me for so long.  However, I work as a consultant for various companies.  And I have worked with probably over 200 by now, so I have to deal with new people all of the time.  My industry tends to be an older and more conservative-leaning crowd.  Much of my work involves working in and around small remote communities.  So I feel as though if I were open about this, it would expose me to the judgement (or perceived judgement) of a lot of different people.  And the risk to my career as I transition into a leadership role is a big concern.  Not to mention that my boss of 15 years has shown himself to be a bigoted individual towards people that are LGBTQ.

You also discussed with Giselle the sexual component of crossdressing…would you care to elaborate on that? What about crossdressing gets you turned on?

There are many parts to it that are sexually charged.  For one, its the anticipation of having the chance to dress up.  When it’s something that can’t always be done, it adds a certain element of built-up energy.  It’s like a seed that just starts to grow.  I might be inspired by an outfit I see on the street, and I think about how that would look on me.  I look for that outfit online.. thinking about the day that I might actually order it and try it on.  Then when the day comes, and I get dressed up.  I look in the mirror and feel good about what I see.  Not like, “hey I’m hot”, it’s more like, damn I look fine.  As a dude, I rarely every feel sexy.  But when I dress up, I actually FEEL sexy.  It’s an exhilarating feeling to embody the sexual energy, instead of as a man just seeking out the feminine sexual energy.  Then there is the tactile nature of all of the different clothes and how they are tight and often form fitting.

You talk about your children with Giselle and breaking gender binaries down with them. How did you come about that conclusion and what is the significance of that moving forward in your children’s upbringing?

It was an approach that my wife and I had early on when we had our first. (in retrospect this sounds like it would have been a great segue to share about my personal gender identity). We didn’t want to go as far as waiting to gender them until they are old enough to do it themselves.  I think that can be too confusing for people around them.  We have always referred to our son as a boy and our daughter as a girl.  We didn’t find out their gender when my wife was pregnant, so right from the get-go, we set the stage for baby gifts from family and friends needing to be gender-neutral.  We have tried to encourage hobbies, toys and activities that boys or girls like to both of our kids.  And we let them choose what they want to do.  Presently, our boy like most typical boy things, and our girl likes mostly typical girl things.  But they are free to chose what they genuinely like.  We have tried to remove as many gender barriers as possible for them, as I think they will appreciate that gender-norms and practices in the school and workplace can be limitations to their potential.  

Does passing play an importance when you are Candice? In what ways do you try or not try to pass?

I always aim to pass when I dress.  I don’t feel comfortable blending gender presentations. I try to pass with the best makeup as possible, and shaving my face very close.  Luckily I don’t have much body hair to deal with, and I generally don’t shave my legs or arms.  Wigs end up being an essential piece for me.  I don’t use wigs or hip/but enhancements.  I am athletic, so I have a lean body shape and my shoulders aren’t very broad either, so I think that helps.

If you had a style when you’re dressed as Candice, what would you say that is? How did you develop it?

I tend to gravitate towards more glamorous evening wear.  I say yes to sparkles and sequins!  I don’t think I really have a style.  I tend to be fairly eclectic.  Which is to say, I don’t really have very many clothes yet.

Do you have a favorite place to shop?

I used to love ordering from Charlotte Russe.  I loved almost everything from there.  I have filled my cart a few times, but never ordered, from Shein and Boohoo.

What’s your favorite thing to wear and why?

I have always had a thing for pantyhose.  So it’s a must for just about every outfit!  It’s hard to say why, but they just feel amazing to wear.

What do you wish you did differently in your life? Do you have any regrets?

I wish I had explored my gender expression and sexuality more when I was in my early 20’s.  When I was single and still defining myself.  Once you are on a career path with a wife and kids, it becomes a lot harder to do that.  Life gets busy and there is a lot less time for ones self.  I think that is why a lot of crossdressing men come out in their 60’s.  They have retired and their kids have grown up, and they find themselves with the time to look inward and explore those parts about themselves they they tucked away for so long. 

 What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender individuals?

Read and listen to as many resources as possible.  There is so much out there now, there is no excuse.  The sooner that you start exploring your identity the better.  If you hide it, you risk damaging a relationship that you may be in like I did.

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Yes, absolutely.  It is somewhat of a therapeutic experience.  Giselle also asks the tough questions in order to challenge some listeners in some things that may be holding them back.  I may, in the future, refer people to my episode if it makes sense.

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Ryanne aka Trekkie Q&A!

Episode 108, Ryanne also known as Trekkie, comes on the podcast to tell her crossdressing story. Here’s our short little Q&A with her.

How old are you and where are you from?

I am 40 years old. I was born in the United Kingdom, raised in Canada, and have lived in the US since the early 90’s.

What brings you to the podcast?

I was looking for a community of people who are questioning and exploring gender, but not necessarily focused on permanently changing their bodies or identities.

Are you a crossdresser?

Yes!

What makes you different from other types of crossdressers?

I also enjoy wearing diapers occasionally. Sometimes I just like the feeling of the padding. Sometimes wearing one turns me on. Sometimes wetting and wearing a wet diaper feels good.

How has living in the midwest affected your lifestyle as a crossdresser?

I had remained closer to the friends and family who knew me and accepted me when I was younger, I may have felt more comfortable openly experimenting with gender earlier in life. The midwest is obviously a conservative place, and challenging gender norms is intimidating. It’s a lot easier to keep my head down and go with the status-quo out here.

How would you identify with your gender identity? Do you identify as transgender? Why or why not?

I had not considered myself transgender, until I was challenged by my therapist and the CrossYaas podcast last spring. I suppose the term that fits me best is genderqueer, which is under the transgender umbrella. I don’t feel comfortable using the general term trangender, because it requires so much explaining to land at how I actually feel. I feel somewhere in-between a man and a woman, and it fluctuates!

How would you classify your sexuality?

I am sexually attracted to most, if not all things feminine. I am attracted to women, but it is a confusing attraction. I often want to feel what it’s like to be a woman, and be with a woman at the same time. When I was in high school, I did joke to my girlfriend that sometimes I felt like a lesbian. I felt so much shame just admitting that, that I pushed it aside for a long time.

Are you open about your crossdressing/sexuality/gender? What was that coming out process like?

I am open to a small number of friends and family. The experience of coming out to each person has been vastly different. With my wife, the conversations are ongoing. With people like my aunt and brother, the conversations were quite easy.

In your Curi – YAAS conversation with Giselle, you talk about going out in public crossdressed with your wife. How was that experience for you? How did you get your wife to agree to that? Where’d you gain that confidence from?

It was so much fun! I think the part I enjoyed the most was letting go of all my stress and anxieties. When I’m crossdressing, I don’t feel like myself. I feel like I’ve shed all of the pressures and responsibilities of being the “Man” of the house, and I get to truly have fun! When I was out with my wife I felt vulnerable. I felt cute. I felt loved. And I loved seeing how protective she got. When someone gave us the stink-eye for holding hands, she nearly charged at him!

I didn’t get my wife to agree to go out with me. She agreed all on her own. I just said it was something I would like to try. I asked her to think about it and get back to me. I also suggested I split our time between girl mode and boy mode, so she could still fall asleep next to the husband she knows. I think that compromise was key to our first experience together.

You also discussed with Giselle going to CapCon with your wife, an ageplay convention in Chicago. Can you elaborate more on that? The CrossYAAS listener would love more details.  Would you go back?

I absolutely would go back! It was the most loving and accepting place I have ever been. The people were so friendly and having so much fun. And their clothes were so cute! Lots of people play with gender when they ageplay, so it was really the first time I had been exposed to a real-life group of crossdressers. And I’d be happy to share more details in the future!

You talk about your children with Giselle. How have you approached the crossdressing aspect of your life with them, and if you haven’t, what would be an ideal way for you to do that?

I have been making incremental changes to my wardrobe for almost two years. I started growing out my hair. When it got long enough to get in my eyes, I started borrowing my daughter’s sparkly cat ear headbands. The kids loved it and encouraged it. I think the next thing I did was wear a midriff long-sleeve T-shirt with a neon drawing of the space shuttle on it. They stared long and hard at my exposed belly button, before shrugging it off. When I asked my daughter how she felt, she said she was confused at first, but then wondered why she was confused. She said she realized she likes my shirt and it didn’t matter that it was shorter than my other shirts. She thought it was cute. 

I’m not quite ready to strap on my fake titties and pull up a mini-skirt around them, but I do dress more feminine in daily life. They are now used to seeing me in “girl clothes” and wearing my hair in expressive ways. I have had my nails done, and I’ve worn mascara around them. My eldest daughter also knows my locked office closet is full of dress-up clothes, but I’m not opening it up for her any time soon! My middle child has asked if we could play dress-up together, but we haven’t made it happen yet. I’m excited to see what develops!

How important is passing to you? In what ways do you try or not try to pass?

I have two crossdressing modes, more or less. In the first mode, I am not trying to pass at all. I may or may not have a beard, and I’m wearing a mixture of things found in the men’s and women’s section. I feel this is me at my purest level, just having fun with who I am and what I can wear to make myself feel good. This is how I currently dress around my family. It probably doesn’t count as crossdressing, but it feels good!

In the second mode, I want a divorce from myself to become something else. In this case I am trying to pass, but it’s still mostly for me. I want to feel the makeup on my face, to remind me not to touch it. I want to feel the eyelash extensions tickle my cheek. I want my shoes to change the way I walk. I want to feel the shaper compressing me into an hourglass and the silicone boobies jiggle when I move. In those moments I want to be completely lost in femininity. If I pass, great! It only helps me get lost even more.

What would you say your style is? How did you develop it?

My style is quite juvenile, and I doubt that will change. My least favorite phrase in the English language is “That’s inappropriate”! I like bold colors in simple combinations. I like silhouettes that are shapely and feminine. I like fabrics that feel soft and light against my skin. I like ribbons and bows in my curly hair. Some may call me a Sissy, and in some ways that’s a decent fit. But I never feel humiliated by my feminine side. I want to feel empowered by it.

What’s your favorite thing to wear?

I start with a soft, thick diaper. Not a crappy drug-store brand geriatric bladder control device. A purpose-made adult sized baby diaper from a boutique manufacturer like Adult Baby Universe or Rearz. A tennis or skater skirt with wedge Chuck-Taylor style shoes. A pink midriff top. A choker and dangly earrings (I want to get my ears pierced this summer!!!) And my hair in pigtails.

What do you wish you did differently in your life?

I wish I hadn’t dismissed my questions so many times. I wish I had continued to look inside to embrace what was important to me, rather than looking to others to give me fulfillment.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers/transgender individuals?

Keep asking the questions, and find people who are asking the same questions. If you know there are others out there, hopefully you’ll know you are valued.

Would you recommend others to come onto the podcast? Why or why not?

Yes! But wait until you are ready. For me, I needed ice-breaker first. I was very nervous to record, and didn’t feel prepared. Giselle was great at calming my nerves, but I still felt like I was babbling incoherently!

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Kelly Mason Q&A!

In episode 89 and 91, Kelly Mason, a crossdresser from Michigan shares her crossdressing story with the podcast. Here’s a little Q&A we did with her.

How old are you and where you from?

35 turning 36 in a few weeks. I’m from Grand Rapids, Michigan

What brings you to the podcast?

I love what are you doing with the podcast and the space you’ve created. And I love to talk, especially about myself! Lol

Are you a crossdresser?

I am!

Do you identify as transgender? Why or why not?

I do see myself as transgender. It is an umbrella term in my eyes. Getting more specific, I usually say bi-gender as I feel that describes my experiencing life as both male and female.

Did you ever have thoughts on transitioning? What made you decide to transition or not transition?

I certainly do. The primary factor in me not transitioning up to this point is that I would miss my male existence. I’ve never been unhappy with who I am, just desired to make more of myself known to the world. It’s not something I’ve ruled out, the future is unknown and that’s okay. Being raised in such a socially gendered society, it’s easy to think I must be male or female and not give acknowledgment to the possibility of both. 

How would you classify your sexuality?

Bisexual. I am primarily attracted to females and trans females. But I do find the random guy here and there turning me on.

Have you explored your sexuality? Was that challenging?

I have a little bit. I’ve been with a guy a couple times. It was hard to push myself into the water if you will. It’s even helped me get a better understanding of what I like in my hetero experiences.

Are you open about your crossdressing/sexuality/gender?

I am open to two people in my life, my ex-wife and current girlfriend. I’ve started to socially connect with some others in my area through Bumble BFF as a woman. Outside of that, my entire world knows my male existence.

Do you wish you were more open about your crossdressing to others?

I do wish it was easier to be open about it. Ultimately, I respect the relationships I’ve developed with people and understand the impact it could have. Just as my experience as Kelly is important, so are those relationships. So it may happen someday, but it will be a very well thought out decision.

Do you wish you came out sooner as Kelly?

Even though I haven’t as of yet, I do wish I came out younger. Just because I realize now that the book of me is constantly getting longer, and the longer it gets, the more of a “surprise” it will or would be.

Are you in a relationship? Does your partner know? 

I am. And she does.

You talk about taking girl staycations in your interview with Giselle, why did you decide to do that?

So my stay-cation/girl-cations have been super important to me. In both cases it allowed me to essentially have a barrier free experience as Kelly. Like from wake up to bed time, which was a huge step from getting a “couple hours” in the bedroom.

How important is passing to you?

Too important lol. It is though. If I like how I look…male or female… I am happier. 

What would you say your style is? How did you develop it?

Oh gosh… I’m all about cuteness. So I’m not so much into short dresses and crop tops (everyone should be thankful for the latter), I love a jeans and cute top look, leggings for days, I have so many pairs of flats.

What’s your favorite thing to wear?

My absolute favorite is rocking a cute dress with a cardigan, I can go heels or flats with it…but ugghhhh I also love black leggings and a Jean jacket with some white canvas shoes…I can never decide.

What do you wish you did differently in your life?

Taken this head on sooner. I have been curious forever and only in the last 7-8 years allowed myself to truly discover this.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers?

Be honest. To yourself and those close to you. When I first confronted this and was married, I tried to play it off so many times. And the most pain I inflicted was just not being as honest as I could’ve been. 

Would you recommend others to come on the podcast? Why or why not?

Absolutely! It was such a fun chat and experience. And we need more exposure to normalize this. I want to hear all of your stories!

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Curi – YAAS Convo with Jessie G Q&A!

Jessie G, a Canadian crossdresser comes on the podcast to tell her story. Here’s some questions we asked her.

How old are you and where you from?

39, Regina Saskatchewan Canada

In terms of Gender, how do you identify?

Bigender or flexible

In terms of Sexuality, how do you identify?

Straight

With regards to your gender and sexuality, is it difficult living as that where you are?

It can be, depending on the day but pretty good on the whole

Do you consider yourself a crossdresser? Why or why not? 

Yes, well mostly, well it all gets confusing.  I guess it all depends on ones definition of crossdresser. I’m male and wear women’s clothing, for some I am a crossdresser for others I am beyond.

Do you consider a crossdresser transgender? Why or why not?

Crossdressers in some ways may be considered transgendered. For me I can view transgender as fairly wide spectrum so crossdressers may be a 2 or 3 out of 10 on such a scale. 

How do you present in public? Are you open about your crossdressing?

Sometimes at work and out with friends as I have been much more open about it for just over a year.

Are you in a relationship? Does your partner know about your crossdressing? How was that process for you?

In a 14 year relationship, told her in the first month as it is always better to as later on the likely issue is less about crossdressing and more about the violation of trust. So I gauged some reposes and then just but the bullet which is the best option as she has been very supportive

How important is passing to you?

Since I’m 6’3, and I weigh 220 lbs, passing is out the window so I just try to look nice

Do you have a distinct sense of style? How did you develop it?

Less a distinct style as more knowing exactly what definitely isn’t. Developing it was basically experimentation

What’s your favorite thing to wear?

Strangely enough, business casual. Who would have thought? Though I am sure it is something about having so many more options than men’s clothing.

Are you in the stage of transitioning? Are you on hormones? If so, can you tell us a little on what made you do that? Was that a difficult decision?

I did start hormones about 6 months ago or so just to see how I liked it and perhaps to get a bit more curves.  I finally decided to do it after a bit of a melt down and re-centering of myself.  And I also realized that I can always stop anytime I want to.

What do you wish you did differently in your life?

Accepted myself earlier, though it wasn’t always a good option. Luckily society is changing faster than I was.

What advice would you give to other crossdressers or those questioning their gender or sex?  

Explore. It’s easier to be you than someone else.

What brought you to the podcast?  Would you recommend others to come on the podcast, why or why not? 

Honest truth, lack of any other content for crossdressers. Now what kept me around is the real question, I found it 3 or 4 episodes in and the roughness has definitely been smoothed out as you found your stride. It’s also interesting to find out how many different variations there are in crossdressing.